jealousy
Every time I see your posts or updates with her, that feeling comes straight away. The jealousy. And damn, it fucking kills me. I tried so hard to always think positive and be happy for you but turns out that I’m being so jealous with you. And her. I envy that you are now being with someone special. Someone who you can share things with. Someone that understand you more. Someone that you chose to stand right beside you. Your future wife, if Allah let you marry her. Maybe I’m being jealous because I haven’t find that someone special. Maybe it’s because I want to be happy too, just like you now with her. And honestly, deep down inside, I’m hoping that you give me a best wishes, just like I’m wishing you. I hope you say, “ I wish you could find that someone special soon ”. But, I know that I’m just somebody that you used to know. Yeah, we are just friend or maybe just an ex-classmate. I know this is stupid but….nevermind, you’ll understand somehow.