virtual diary of mba amal

Yesterday I saw a post on my LINE’s timeline. The post is like this: Signs of Overthinking second guess everything analyze things to death catastrophize or expect the worst have insomnia hate making decisions would rather someone decides for you regret often can’t let things go take things personally when they aren’t are a perfectionist criticize yourself a lot never feel 100% certain feel tense feel like you can’t turn your brain off I don’t know if those symptoms are based on reliable research (I’m too lazy to find out more) but some of it often happens to me. Being overthink is the worst thing could happen. It is frustrating. And even worst, it can lead us to mental illness. From all the symptoms, I feel like self-criticizing happens a lot more. When I made a mistake, I often feel useless. When I haven’t get what I deserve to, I often feel worthless. And when those two happen, I can’t just let it go easily. I keep blaming and asking myself what the hell is

Meskipun semester 5 udah berlalu (akhirnya) dan udah gak perlu dipikirin lagi tapi.…gak tau kenapa rasanya pengen cerita sedikit apa aja yang terjadi di semester 5. Semester paling berat kalo kata anak-anak kampus gua mah, bahkan beberapa teman di kampus lain juga setuju soal itu. Namun terlepas dari itu, entah kenapa gua ngerasa semester ini adalah yang paling seru dibanding 4 semester sebelumnya.  Hari pertama kuliah di semester 5 gua udah gak enak bodi aja. This is not a good start. Pulang ngampus sekitar jam 2an badan gua panas. Yaudah akhirnya gua istirahat dengan harapan besok pagi keadaan membaik. Keesokannya gua bangun dan badan gua masih panas aja, udah gitu ulu hati rada sakit. Ternyata gua demam + maag, agak kocak sih sebenernya tapi bingung juga belom ngapa-ngapain kok udah sakit aja-_-. Terpaksa pake jatah absen 2 hari deh, untung baru minggu pertama jadi kayaknya gak bakal ketinggalan amat lah ya. Untungnya pas hari Kamis gua bisa kembali berkuliah. Pada pertenga